God help me God. I feel like I have never been so lost as I am now. My faith waivers. I feel lost. I try to trust your plan and do my best according to the circumstances but I feel like if I can't break free soon all will be lost. I felt you'd blinded me to show me what the world has become, to steer me in the right direction before I could reclaim my body. I don't know. I wan't to excel, to command. I find myself insecure. If I can't believe in myself who will. Do you believe in me? 


 Am I a fool?