I need to remember that this would probably work better as a standalone, where minimal references are needed, as alluring as the thought of being secretive is.
Yesterday towards 9pm I experienced this crazy euphoria unlike any other while listening to music and reading best of WSO section. I felt like I was on drugs 100%. This has led me to think its possible I could be predisposed to BPD although who knows. I also took a redbull earlier in the day it couldve kicked in late. I took an edible and a melatonin preparing to crash early. Vyja proceeded to surprise me with the fact that she's in Boston. I really cant tell if we operate on the same level. I've like her for the longest time and feel like I make it obvious enough. Maybe I should cut ties if she doesn't reciprocate.
Edit: This reminds me of when I was about 15 listening to top of the world by kimbra before bed and it felt like a music orgasm
I felt oddly left out seing Hayden, Aidan Nam celebrating Aidans birthday. Really not too sure what to do with these guys. Genuinely have a hard time connecting with other people and don't entirely understand where I fit in. Really dont understand Jamie either. I try to be friendly but she just takes so long to respond. Is there something so wrong with me or is she crazy busy. I don't really think so! 23
Affirmative action should be done based on economic standards. Simple as that. No need for peruvian aristocracy working at Lazard.
Adderal definitely puts me in a better mood. Lets hope that it's mostly because I'm more productive on it. I was exhausted until 5pm today from the weed and the melatonin. That shit is so much.
Spilled mass gainer shake on my keyboard. I have started to think of time as money a little to literally. If something takes even a little bit long to repair or clean I may be very easily considering to just chuck it.
The rich get richer. And it's so easy for me to take away accountability from myself. If there is any cause that I will dedicate my life to I think it is this one. Psychologically its very difficult. My father didn't show me that anything was possible. My mother was caring and taught me so much and motivated me to some extent. But I think I really haven't had a male role model. And what about affirmative action. Bullshit. I guess economically I slightly below middle class now? I'm not even sure. I don't put nearly as much care into spending as I used to. Parents' money keeps coming.